God is still being good to me and He is working in my life. I really want Him to appear in my studies and I want to give them to Him. I don't want to be a conformer of this world, which I believe that this school is like in many aspects, and so I don't want to give the answers that every one wants, but what will be in accordance with radical discipleship.

I like this author Thomas Cahill. Here is one of the great statements that he has said in his book "How the Irish Saved Civilization"...
"In the Gospel story, the passionate, the outsized, the out-of-control have a better shot at seizing heaven than the contained, the calculating, and those of whom this world approves"
I think that on the most part if not all, he is accurate. Yesterday the Alumni came to MVNU and a couple were awarded for their outstanding accomplishments. I am not sure though how much of this was done for the purpose of just wanting to fallow after Christ. I also don't necessarily want to be number one in this world or maybe in the Christian community. I have often envisioned myself speaking to masses, and even people have confirmed that. On the other hand, I do not wish to do this if it means being first approved of people with worldly perspectives, but only approved through a lens a want for radical discipleship.
Cahill talks about St. Patrick as one who stepped out of the world of civilization and into the world of the "barbarians" to be an apostle of Christ. Not even the Apostle Paul did this, he says, though I will add, as to not discredit him, that he felt a call to the Roman civilization and his longing was that that even his fellow Jews in the Diaspora, would come to know God, which is only found in civilized society of the Mediterranean world. What an incredible accomplishment for Patrick, for he reached out and evangelized almost the whole of Ireland. The story, however is even cooler, how God did such a thing and initiated this process is great and somewhat similar to the story of Paul.