Words

Words
God has been speaking to me as of late. What has he said?
"Listen up" "Be aware!"
Funny that he said that a few days before the Church met and discussed awareness of the Kingdom. I think it has to do with that, but also something else. He is going to do something major in my life within the next year. Some great things are going to happen, and I can't wait. He has also been revealing to me what my calling is all about. What I initially discerned that fall day in 1999, what I was misled to believe it to be, the avenues I was misled to take to get there (which I was stopped short of completing...multiple times!), and what I discern today. The former and the latter are the same, stronger now than before. The middle two are a result of my blind interpretation of that call, filtered through my incomplete world view. Oh God please help me not to believe it again. Help me not to believe that I have it, see things plainly. My continued searching for answers is plainly evidence of my lack of knowledge and perspective.
So what is it? What was it that I discerned? It is nothing more or less than what I knew in my heart to be true before. I had only denied through actions and misplaced trains of thought. My call is to evangelize. The great fire has raged within me, but I have denied it sustenance. Of course I really don't know what it is! Accept these two things, prayer and evangelism through service. In the quiet place I will speak my supplications with God, and in the open my life will be a roaring megaphone, blaring the Good News.