The Innocent Side of Life and Highlights From Me Loosing My Cool

Yesterday I bought some "cranberry juice" from some kids for $1.23. I'm not sure what was in it, but it was mostly water, and I saw some parts of raspberry in it. The cup looked dirty so I asked if they washed it and one of the kids said no. I don't think they did, but I drank it anyways. I also asked if they washed the berries and they said yes. Kids, you gotta love them. It tasted dirty. Oh yah, I also noticed that they poured it from a sand bucket.
On another front its a good think I didn't take my car to Ashtabula because my heater core got clogged the day after I went back. Clogged heater core + leaky cooling system = overheats easily. Needless to say I may not have gotten there. But I did and when I got up to speak to the recent graduates something happened that never happens. I panicked. Why did I panic I do not know? I've spoken places and had no time to prepare at all, had God give me the sermon in a matter of moments and had a great turn out before. I've also prepared more and done a lot worse, but that was years ago. This time I was prepared and I spoke, but it was choppy and the "ums" were, well, frequent. What happened? Was it the adults? Was it the place? Did I let my guard down? Was it my fear of judgment by the Christian community because of my recent history? Time will tell. I don't intend to live in fear or preach in fear. I want to live by faith. I did get the message across, and one teen came up and thanked me for the message. Perhaps the seed was planted. Hopefully there is good soil.