hopeFULL preMIniTION

I don’t know how I know
Or when it wills to come
Except to say it’s soon
Some great thing I presume

I only hope it now
In the near I will show
The things that I will do
Will see me not regret

I do not want to miss
This kingdom thing to come
To be used for or in
This predestined event

If I am not to be
In this ordained affair
Then hopefully I’ll see
To tell it to the young

Alas I cannot wait
To see the future march
And to participate
This birth that I foretell

New Territories to Cover

Were ARE the Church. Amen.

I will be moving into my place at Merry Street on Labor Day. I don't know what God has for me there, but it will be different. Entirely different. A boarding house with people from who knows where, that are going to who knows where. Relationships to be shared. Barriers to be broken. Love to be given. Jesus to be shared. Here is the wisdom I carry with me: I can't expect great things if there aren't great problems. As Jesus said, "only the sick need a doctor."

Valvy

I checked back with Valvaline on monday and they said they were still looking for someone. I'm supposed to go over there on fri at 1:00 PM to fill out some paperwork Meanwhile they don't know when their next orientation is so I don't know what I will do about McD's. I think I might just quite now before my training is over. That way they don't waist more money. Yah, today was my first day, and it was boring. I sat and wached these kinky videos most of the time. I'd rather learn hands on. Oh well. I did end up getting to talk to a dude who wanted dunkan donuts. He was traveling and vacationing with his wife. They had also gone to a wedding. That was fun. I had created a "golden moment". sheesh, what happend to just pure love?

My Dorkyness

I feel really dumb. I had an interview at the big Mc D's yesterday. She asked me three or four questions and then asked me about orientation. In that time I was so flabergasted that I forgot to ask how much I am getting payed and if it was part or full time. I'm pretty sure I asked for 8/hr and full time on the app. but that doesn't mean anything does it? Well I have orientation in 50 minutes so I guess I will ask then.

The number streats...the harvest...dear God, let me see it for its potential.

Most often our actions are driven by one of two basic motives, though there are others like hate and envy and lust. For Christians it is mostly love or fear. We are supposed to be the people who act wholly out of love through the Holy Spirit, but for some reason we often find ourselves (or at least I do) struggling with fear, though fear runs contrary to faith. I am often faced with a decision. God will mention for me to do this or that, or talk to this person or that person. Immediately a battle begins in my heart and mind and I think about all the possibilities. Do I listen to love, which says this person needs God's love and wholeness, or do I listen to fear, which mentions the possibility of rejection. If I chose the first response, then I am reacting in love and faith in response to the Holy Spirit, but if I chose the second, I act in response to fear and I deny the Holy Spirit. Therefore, I charge myself, and the Christian community to pay attention to our motives. Do we act in faith and love? Or do we act with a motive contrary to faith? Further we should consider where we are on our journey in light of scripture:

This way, love has the run of the house, becomes at home and mature in us, so
that we're free of worry on Judgment Day - our standing in the world is
identical with Christ's. There is no room in love for fear. Well-formed
love banishes fear. Since fear is crippling, a fearful life - fear of death,
fear of judgment - is one not yet fully formed in love.

(Read First John 4 for the whole context).