Car Stuff and Self Doubt

I've been having fun with my water pump lately. I finally got that last nut off. Then after looking at it I decided to take off the engine housing that it was sitting on. I'm glad I did, because I would have had to take it all apart again. The gasket was so corroded that I went and got a replacement. After replacing that, I decided to take the splitter hose off (for the heater core and lower radiator lines) and resealed that with silicon base cement. All I have to do is take the pulley off the old pump, put it on the new, and put the pump on the housing. Not that anyone cares.
Anyways, I've been thinking a lot about people who do things like heal or lead great masses of people to Christ. I wonder what kind of struggles they have, whether or not they experience doubt, or how they cope with being in the spot light. After so many people telling me that "God has great things in store for [me]" and wondering what it is that's going to be, I might possibly have a glimpse. I never worried about it, but now there is so much apprehension, and so many more questions. Where do I begin? Somehow, I don't think I will have a choice, really. It's going to happen no matter what.

Good News

Well, my dad's treatments just seem to be starting to work later than expected. That is very good. He's doing great and I'm very happy about it. There is also an expirimental treatment for people dependant on steroids that my dad is considering. Basically they burn the inside of the lungs. I hope he gets it done. I'm still working on my water pump. Just one more bolt to get out of my way and it is off. Then I'll have to deal with a nother series of problems, but we'll cross that bridge when we get there.

My Christmas List

So we won’t be doing tomatoes until Monday, which is okay. I hope dad can help, he seems to be getting worse, despite all his treatments at the pain clinic. If you don't know his back and hips bother him all the time, severely enough to be on multiple pain medications, get multiple epidurals, and get his nerves fried and still be in pain. Please pray for my dad to be healed. He doesn't want to give up and neither do I. I want more than anything for him to get better. This pain seems to be the only thing that is keeping my dad from getting healthier. If not for the pain, he could go off steroids, water pills, pain reliever, and begin a more active lifestyle - not to mention get some decent sleep - one that I want to be involved in. I want this more than anything else right now.
On my list of things to do this weekend...
get my bike fixed
fix my car's water pump
spend time with family doing what Wilhelm's do
not much of a list, but that's good enough.